December 8, 2014

Why I Wanted to Lose My Mind!

I never pictured myself in this predicament. I thought I was saved. I thought that the next time satan tried to dangle sin in my face, I would surely show him! But the thing is, I knew exactly what I was doing before I committed the crime. I knew better, I so did know better. So why didn't I do better? Maybe I wasn't totally "in" like I thought I was. Maybe I was weak, and my flesh had seemingly once again proved, "Girl, you can't be saved! Look at you! That was all you, not me!"

How many of us have thought those very things to ourselves? 

It is truly remarkable when you reach that powerful revelation that there will be NO turning back. When you FINALLY get sick and tired of the devil using you and making a complete fool out of you. And it makes no difference to the devil. What we as Christians fail to realize is that the devil is real. So real. & He will use ANYONE & ANYTHING to get to you. Oh, you go to church every Sunday? So what! The devil does too. You still operate with the same mind come Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday...and so on.

Nothing changes until that mind gets renewed. Let's look at what the bible says about renewing one's mind:

"And be not conformed to this world: but be ye transformed by the renewing of your mind, that ye may prove what is that good, acceptable, and perfect, will of God." (Romans 12:2)

The world is a tricky place. She'll have you twisted, crazy, angry & have you believing that in the midst of everything you are going through-that you STILL do not need God. So false. We need God, more than we think we do. So why is it that people don't RUN to God with their burdens? We each have our own answer to that question.

[[For me, it was not truly believing I would be "okay" with just me & my bible & God. It happened several months ago, I broke down on my knees & began to cry out & then the Lord began to deal with me in a way that blew my mind. I received healing & wisdom & from that point on I always knew that no situation, no heartbreak, no loss is ever too great for God to deliver you from. But I still wanted what Gina wanted, & what Gina felt was right because my mind hadn't been completely renewed.]]

Isn't it something we still choose to turn away from God even when he reveals himself? One thing I've learned is that when you have that encounter, that real encounter, it implants itself as a tiny spark deep within your heart, your spirit, and then the more you try to run away and ignore it, it begins to transform into a raging fire & you just know you can't continue on like you have been. It's that burning desire.

"Come unto me, all ye that labour and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you, and learn of me; for I am meek and lowly in heart: and ye shall find rest unto your souls. For my yoke is easy, and my burden is light." (Matthew 11:28-30)

Often times we hold onto things. Things that cause other tribulations to flare up that were not intended for our life. Relationships, careers, friends, lifestyles, etc. & it can be so difficult to separate ourselves from these things. What is even more difficult is to cast out OUR WAY of thinking. Our opinions about how things should go and what matters. It is God's way. We have to be completely reprogrammed and operate with a mind that has Christ principles as its foundation. I welcomed the idea of losing my mind! The mind that thought it was okay to transgress the word of God and do whatever feels good. The mind that thought I can call myself a Christian but I don't actually need to apply the word to everyday life.

RENEW: to make (something) new, fresh, or strong again/ to make (a promise, vow) again/ to begin (something) again especially with more force or enthusiasm.

I encourage you to discuss with yourself your opinions on matters such as relationships, dating, and how to live in this world that was never meant for us as a permanent they line up with the word of God? Is it what HE says and not what you say? Let's make a vow to consciously let the old mind and way of doing things die a little more and more each day. Renew our minds. Take everything out that is unlike God. Yes, EVERYTHING. God wants ALL of your heart, not just pieces, & not while you are desiring after something you think can supply/fulfill you greater than Him. Seek & follow after him, and the best way to do that is to start where you are!


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